and i'm sorry to let anyone of you worried bout me...
but, its different when you're down, ... upset. just looking for the special someone. but its no longer there. the seat is empty. yet, i don allow anyone to sit on. i don understand me. i don understand myself. why do i still hold on, feeling so hurt bout everything he does now. crusing and swearing... wads the use of all these? nothing's gonna change the fact that you are gone. and i'm all alone here, by myself.
i believe strongly... time heals everything. and i'd rather take the pain now,
than regretting my whole entire life in the future. i must BE STRONG!
MONDAY, was a dreadful day for me.
i slpt 4am, and had to struggle to wake up at 8am. i was late for work, for only 15mins.
12+pm, Joseph (manager) came.
saying... Lynn (boss) smsed him early in the morning that me and Jason (baker) was late.
Lynn had been seeing us thru the DAMN CCTV the whole morning.
after that, Lynn msg another to Joseph again..
saying... xt didnt check stock and do donuts+cheese bun in the morning.
checking of stock wasnt even my job since day 1!
i only do the checking of the list!
and the damn donuts+cheese bun alrdy done.
WTF am i suppose to do?
this working place is INSANE.
later... when i handover cashier to Joseph.
great. guess wad?
$100 shortage!
i don know how, why, what.... happen to the $100.
fuck.
wad to do?
i had to pay. but didnt have tat much with me.
i went home to print all my projs.
reprinted my COST proj the 3rd time then its correct.
fucking header got so much problems.
aiya.. also becos i nv c properly.
THEN! Joseph call, ask how come i still haven come and pay...
FUCK LA! THINK I'LL RUN AWAY MEH?!
HOW TO RUN?! TELL ME LA. KNN.
damn pissed off leh.
after finish printing all the things...
i go pay that bloody $100 and off to sch.
reached sch, lesson end alrdy. zzz.
but it was also becos there's no more lessons to go thru.
discussed abit of proj with my two cute sim frens...
then met Minghui to submit proj.
and Shermaine didnt even turn up for the submission.
asking Minghui to forge her signature.
fucked up.... really damn fucked up!
its really a bad mth for me.
and was brousing thru youtube just now.
found this song... 张靓颖 Jane Zhang 我们说好的(A Promise) i've put the vid below.
which really describe the whole situation bout me and him now.
make me really emo. nearly cried over this MV.
omg omg omg.
whatever. i must preservere till APRIL mid!
my end of work, end of school term!
looking forward!
--
. . .
P.S: pardon my bad languages, i'm really fuming with rage! RAGH! :(
I wanna go Singapore Flyer! i wish someone can bring me there...
BF test isnt tat good. i hope i can pass... :'( hais. things arent going very well now. just hope everythings gets better... i seriously need more off days!! MA proj still undone! i still told MingHui i'll email her by tonight. sucks man. i've yet to do so. damn. tml gotta wake up earlier! gotta work tml... 3 to 1030pm. hais. sucks sucks sucks! Mayying's enjoying life at Bintan now. how envying... lol!
well well, coming Sat having timsum buffet with HW, and my two cute SIM frens! i'm so looking forward to it! after that should be going home to do proj. if nobody ask me out... I MUST PERSERVERE!!! RAGH!
recently there's 2 funny taggers flooding my tagboard. hahaha! anyway, thankyou so much for keeping me entertained. i'll try to blog more often. rather than keeping everything to myself. this weekend i'm fully packed! going to Mayying's bday on sat night. and going blading on sunday night! omg.... i really must study now and before going out to play! zzz... i've yet to start on a single shit now. =/ i'm dead i'm dead.
hais... somehow. i'm still afraid of him. i'm afraid to let him know i'm outside with some guys as frens. i don know why... probably i'm still not use to being single. or perhaps i still think for him. hais... i have to get over with this asap! this is not gonna affect my main exams! no no no no..!
i'm working tonight! zzz... from this week onwards i'm working friday night shift. sucks. i'm gonna quit REAL SOON!
everything is finally over. i wonder, should i really be happy or sad. i'm numb bout this whole thing. i feel sad each time i think of him. but, life has to move on. guess i'll make more new frens to distract myself. i can nv stay still at a place for long now. especially at home... so i've been out recently. many things still make me think of him. i don know if i really can forget bout him. but, we've settle everything out. we're friends now. best friends. we'll still go out, sms, tell each other things. but, just as a fren. we've agree on this, cos we know it wont be good for us if we continue. we cant stop quarreling. our mindsets are just two diff world. yet, we still love each other deeply. since we cant let go of each other yet, we'll be best frens... at least we feel better having each other's presence. tho it's no longer the same...
it had been tough for me last week. especially the first 2 days... each time i mention 'the break-up' i cried. really heart aching. but, i wont turn back. i've made my decision. i've taken every little considerations into my head. this will still be the best for us. for our future. i believe someone out there will suit him better.
thru out the week, thankyou so much my frens... for being there for me. for supporting my decision. it does make me feel better. i appreciate it alot. this entry explains why i've not blog for a long time. i've been occupied with too many nonsense.
well, i recovering gradually. one the bright side, single's not that bad after all. ;) hopefully the cheerful me will be back soon.
just had SBTA 50% test yest. i was pretty scare about it. cos i didnt study much. but it turn out to be okay. seems like it doesnt need much of studying. just hope i'm not wrong in feeling that way. =/ it's over anyway. BF's test coming up on tues! must chiong liao. i've yet to touch anything on it! ARGH! die die die.. this sat night still got MAYYING's bday party to attend! one of my cute SIM frens. haha. so i die die have to go. i couldnt find a date still!!! :( i'll fish someone out of somewhere. haha!
its late now. still have work tml. hais. gonna turn in. good nights! ^^
and i'm sorry to let anyone of you worried bout me...
but, its different when you're down, ... upset. just looking for the special someone. but its no longer there. the seat is empty. yet, i don allow anyone to sit on. i don understand me. i don understand myself. why do i still hold on, feeling so hurt bout everything he does now. crusing and swearing... wads the use of all these? nothing's gonna change the fact that you are gone. and i'm all alone here, by myself.
i believe strongly... time heals everything. and i'd rather take the pain now,
than regretting my whole entire life in the future. i must BE STRONG!
MONDAY, was a dreadful day for me.
i slpt 4am, and had to struggle to wake up at 8am. i was late for work, for only 15mins.
12+pm, Joseph (manager) came.
saying... Lynn (boss) smsed him early in the morning that me and Jason (baker) was late.
Lynn had been seeing us thru the DAMN CCTV the whole morning.
after that, Lynn msg another to Joseph again..
saying... xt didnt check stock and do donuts+cheese bun in the morning.
checking of stock wasnt even my job since day 1!
i only do the checking of the list!
and the damn donuts+cheese bun alrdy done.
WTF am i suppose to do?
this working place is INSANE.
later... when i handover cashier to Joseph.
great. guess wad?
$100 shortage!
i don know how, why, what.... happen to the $100.
fuck.
wad to do?
i had to pay. but didnt have tat much with me.
i went home to print all my projs.
reprinted my COST proj the 3rd time then its correct.
fucking header got so much problems.
aiya.. also becos i nv c properly.
THEN! Joseph call, ask how come i still haven come and pay...
FUCK LA! THINK I'LL RUN AWAY MEH?!
HOW TO RUN?! TELL ME LA. KNN.
damn pissed off leh.
after finish printing all the things...
i go pay that bloody $100 and off to sch.
reached sch, lesson end alrdy. zzz.
but it was also becos there's no more lessons to go thru.
discussed abit of proj with my two cute sim frens...
then met Minghui to submit proj.
and Shermaine didnt even turn up for the submission.
asking Minghui to forge her signature.
fucked up.... really damn fucked up!
its really a bad mth for me.
and was brousing thru youtube just now.
found this song... 张靓颖 Jane Zhang 我们说好的(A Promise) i've put the vid below.
which really describe the whole situation bout me and him now.
make me really emo. nearly cried over this MV.
omg omg omg.
whatever. i must preservere till APRIL mid!
my end of work, end of school term!
looking forward!
--
. . .
P.S: pardon my bad languages, i'm really fuming with rage! RAGH! :(
I wanna go Singapore Flyer! i wish someone can bring me there...
BF test isnt tat good. i hope i can pass... :'( hais. things arent going very well now. just hope everythings gets better... i seriously need more off days!! MA proj still undone! i still told MingHui i'll email her by tonight. sucks man. i've yet to do so. damn. tml gotta wake up earlier! gotta work tml... 3 to 1030pm. hais. sucks sucks sucks! Mayying's enjoying life at Bintan now. how envying... lol!
well well, coming Sat having timsum buffet with HW, and my two cute SIM frens! i'm so looking forward to it! after that should be going home to do proj. if nobody ask me out... I MUST PERSERVERE!!! RAGH!
recently there's 2 funny taggers flooding my tagboard. hahaha! anyway, thankyou so much for keeping me entertained. i'll try to blog more often. rather than keeping everything to myself. this weekend i'm fully packed! going to Mayying's bday on sat night. and going blading on sunday night! omg.... i really must study now and before going out to play! zzz... i've yet to start on a single shit now. =/ i'm dead i'm dead.
hais... somehow. i'm still afraid of him. i'm afraid to let him know i'm outside with some guys as frens. i don know why... probably i'm still not use to being single. or perhaps i still think for him. hais... i have to get over with this asap! this is not gonna affect my main exams! no no no no..!
i'm working tonight! zzz... from this week onwards i'm working friday night shift. sucks. i'm gonna quit REAL SOON!
everything is finally over. i wonder, should i really be happy or sad. i'm numb bout this whole thing. i feel sad each time i think of him. but, life has to move on. guess i'll make more new frens to distract myself. i can nv stay still at a place for long now. especially at home... so i've been out recently. many things still make me think of him. i don know if i really can forget bout him. but, we've settle everything out. we're friends now. best friends. we'll still go out, sms, tell each other things. but, just as a fren. we've agree on this, cos we know it wont be good for us if we continue. we cant stop quarreling. our mindsets are just two diff world. yet, we still love each other deeply. since we cant let go of each other yet, we'll be best frens... at least we feel better having each other's presence. tho it's no longer the same...
it had been tough for me last week. especially the first 2 days... each time i mention 'the break-up' i cried. really heart aching. but, i wont turn back. i've made my decision. i've taken every little considerations into my head. this will still be the best for us. for our future. i believe someone out there will suit him better.
thru out the week, thankyou so much my frens... for being there for me. for supporting my decision. it does make me feel better. i appreciate it alot. this entry explains why i've not blog for a long time. i've been occupied with too many nonsense.
well, i recovering gradually. one the bright side, single's not that bad after all. ;) hopefully the cheerful me will be back soon.
just had SBTA 50% test yest. i was pretty scare about it. cos i didnt study much. but it turn out to be okay. seems like it doesnt need much of studying. just hope i'm not wrong in feeling that way. =/ it's over anyway. BF's test coming up on tues! must chiong liao. i've yet to touch anything on it! ARGH! die die die.. this sat night still got MAYYING's bday party to attend! one of my cute SIM frens. haha. so i die die have to go. i couldnt find a date still!!! :( i'll fish someone out of somewhere. haha!
its late now. still have work tml. hais. gonna turn in. good nights! ^^
