keeping myself busy recently... to stop myself from tinking bout many nonsense. made new frens at work place. had some outings, tho deep inside, i'm really upset. everything seems to be bothering me. . . .
i've read a friend's blog. i don wish to mention the name due to some reasons. i nearly cried while reading... could feel the pain and fear in the person. that much this person is going thru as compare to myself. i consider myself lucky. tho i feel i'm in a total mess now. it felt so painful even by just reading the blog, knowing that few little things. it must have really been devastating for the person. its really heart-breaking to see my friend like that. it hurts me, somehow... somehow i could put myself in the person's shoes. there's no way i could help too. i know the bestie will accompany this person thru. how i wish, i don have this job now. and i could have been physically by this person side.
because maybe just one day... that i might end up similarly as this person... i sincerely wished, someone could be by my side. and because i could picture that no one will be by my side.
been long since i last came in again... i'm at my work place revising some stuffs now. not in mood today. still have class later. worse still, i cannot don go. sucks. so bored, so tired of everything. this year really seems to be a bad year to me. but ppl around me tells me that Zodiac Snake is one of the best for this year. i don feel so at all... -.- hais... now totally no mood for books. feel like going out, but i'm lazy to go by myself. i could have asked someone to come fetch me out. but boyf will be pissed if i do so. wad to do... nothing lor. rot here and study these shits. well, just roughly going thru... not studying in depth yet.
i'm thinking bout bags again. should i buy or not. =/ no money leh... probably wait for this month pay ba... hais... thinking bout clothes too... no time for shopping. how depressing...
don know wads wrong with me recently... down mood, pms i guess. excuses excuses excuses..
keeping myself busy recently... to stop myself from tinking bout many nonsense. made new frens at work place. had some outings, tho deep inside, i'm really upset. everything seems to be bothering me. . . .
i've read a friend's blog. i don wish to mention the name due to some reasons. i nearly cried while reading... could feel the pain and fear in the person. that much this person is going thru as compare to myself. i consider myself lucky. tho i feel i'm in a total mess now. it felt so painful even by just reading the blog, knowing that few little things. it must have really been devastating for the person. its really heart-breaking to see my friend like that. it hurts me, somehow... somehow i could put myself in the person's shoes. there's no way i could help too. i know the bestie will accompany this person thru. how i wish, i don have this job now. and i could have been physically by this person side.
because maybe just one day... that i might end up similarly as this person... i sincerely wished, someone could be by my side. and because i could picture that no one will be by my side.
been long since i last came in again... i'm at my work place revising some stuffs now. not in mood today. still have class later. worse still, i cannot don go. sucks. so bored, so tired of everything. this year really seems to be a bad year to me. but ppl around me tells me that Zodiac Snake is one of the best for this year. i don feel so at all... -.- hais... now totally no mood for books. feel like going out, but i'm lazy to go by myself. i could have asked someone to come fetch me out. but boyf will be pissed if i do so. wad to do... nothing lor. rot here and study these shits. well, just roughly going thru... not studying in depth yet.
i'm thinking bout bags again. should i buy or not. =/ no money leh... probably wait for this month pay ba... hais... thinking bout clothes too... no time for shopping. how depressing...
don know wads wrong with me recently... down mood, pms i guess. excuses excuses excuses..
