meeting him everyday... yet i still don feel contented! why am i so greedy? :(
project tomorrow at cheryl's place~ meeting baby again in the morning. gonna be a tired day for me! now its 2AM+... hais... tml waking at 8AM! sians...
but, no choice also la... cos i wanna meet him.
i'm a drug-addictor!
you're my sweetest addiction! the only drug i'll wish to take for life. i love you baby <3
MA presentation is the last! woots! and lessons are gonna be over real real REAL soon! :D i can feel the excitement~ but... exams are coming up... -.- zzz... NVM! hols are coming up too!!! hohoho! i'm gonna work work WORK! earn $$! then can always go out with baby! wahahahaha~! recently been good with baby. :) i just hope everything stays this way... but somehow i know it myself... it isnt gonna be like this for long. something will be up soon. hais... i pray that i'm just being over-sensitive. . . .
went jogging this noon with baby. i jogged one round only, and nearly died. baby jogged two rounds. haha! then went back, baby had hair cut and we bought KFC home! ate, bathed and went down for bball. haha! but i played abit only. didnt have the mood for bball today. i feel that i'm always spoiling the game. hais... i hope i can move more... JIAYOUS!
reached home abit late. gotten some nags. zzz... thanks baby. for sending me home quite often recently. it feels really good. but i'm also afraid you might be tired of it... :( hais... i'm contradicting...
its kinda hot tonight... gonna on aircon~ nights all! <3
i should keep this place a cheerful one... rather than a-better-place-to-emo!
i should keep things more to myself and being more independent. i should learn many things... one at a time! JIAYOUS x3!
anyway, went for piano this afternoon, and ate breakfast-lunch at his place. his mum cooked curry! whao... quite nice. i saw his mum cooking last night. so nice of his mum to cook the night before. i missed homecooked! its been long since my mum cooked at home. hais... mum's cook is really nice. she had to work... :( and really tired after that. yet, i still so rebellious... sometimes, i really hate myself. for being so un-filial... :'( hais... after that went to play bball. cos really nothing to do. shoot shoot... i shoot 100 balls think only 1 went in?! DAMN! HATE IT! i must improve! >:( JIAYOUS x3!
now working on project... MYOB MYOB~ after this week, we'll have one presentation to go... and EXAMS are NEARING! again, jiayou jiayouJIAYOU my two cute friends! :D after these we can enjoy enjoyENJOY! ^^
due to compplaints... my font has changed to bigger ones. actually i prefer the small one. haha! things are fine after that night. i bought breezer home to drink. cause my limits really sucks. i cant drink something more alcoholic. and i really had the urge of drinking... i did not want to spend my night thinking again. after i drank, had headaches... but whole mind was him. the face of him when we quarreled. tho not thinking bout the contents; i cried to sleep. was really hurt......
now that everything's kinda over. i rather not mention bout the whole issue. (: i'm fine my friends. thanks to Cheryl for listening me out that night. tho you had your problems too. thanks to friends who'll be there for me. i appreciate it. (: i just hope... things will work out this time. *prays...
well, tml gonna play water with dear. going jurong east swimming complex. hees~ gonna have FUN! ^^ OH! you know what?! just now there's a huge beetle bout 3cm big! in my room!! flying around! ARGH! I HATE BUGS! luckily brother helped me to get rid of it; when it rested. hees.. GOOD RIDDANCE!
turning in now... chocolate dreams!
looking on the bright side... at least these things happens now, and not much later, where there's no turning back. i still love you as much baby-
jus had some memory recapping... i cant help it but to start crying... you've changed... through out the past 6mths... i finally understand the difference between honeymoon period and non-honeymoon period. i know i've changed too. i've changed to loving you more than i've ever did. i hope things wont go worse... i love you baby. i really do.
sometimes i wonder why do people blame around... blaming life is so unfair. getting jealous because another person's life is better. hating people when you're not as good, or as good looking. things i believe in, very few people believes too. i believe in karma. things we get this life is related to our past lives. many questions of doubts will arise whenever i say this... true, we all doubt we had past lives cos we cant see. we wont know. so its up to oneself to believe. to me, it just seems logical. i do believe we had past lives. if we don, why is it that different people have different lives? why do people nowadays gets more lousy? why do people become more evil? as every generation passes, the younger ones are always not as good as the elders. probably some doesnt. some made it out better than their older generation. i feel that its all related. what you have in life is what you reaped in ur past. why would god be unfair to a newly born child? giving an innocent child unfavoured things, while giving another child favoured items? most of the people will say, who knows? you cant see, you wont know. or some will tell me, you think you who? know of all these things... which is why i don like to mention of such topics. i'll just get shoot while trying to let a person know my beliefs. wads the point? hahaha.
i just feel that, people will start blame god and life when they arent good, and don wanna blame themselves for their own fault. well... everyone has their own beliefs. i respect all. so do respect mine too. and don tell me things like " who you think you are " cos its pissing... i'm just sharing. not insisting anyone to believe in my beliefs. i'm happy with my own beliefs. and willing to listen out in others' beliefs. cos i might believe too. everyone learns along the way.
and one funny thing i've notice bout humans. i mean everybody, INCLUDING MYSELF! we tend to always say, " why didnt you warn me earlier bout this? " and if the person had alrdy tried warning, he/she will reply... " like as if i warn you, you'll listen... " leading to many regrets... of " i should have... blah blah blah. i should have... blah blah. "
isn't it funny? doesn't it feels like what i've just said above? bout my beliefs and people doubts... what if, my beliefs are true? well, we'll know when we die. haha! i just feel that, its no harm being a good person. so what if you donate more money or doing extra works... just, maybe by doing so, you've earn credits to your next life, or probably to ur own future! and being a good person, nobody will hate you; not to mention jealous ones... those cant be helped. nobody's perfect.
oh, if anyone happens to pass by my blog and reading this? negative tags will be deleted. because this is MY blog, writing MY own thinkings. i don see the point for entertaining any negative replies, if you don like what i've said, ALT F4, thankyou.
i think you all will be curious of why i'm suddenly talking bout this topic... haha! reason being... i just happen to pass by a fren's blog. and she's complaining bout life being unfair, where by others can go overseas for hols, studying in uni and enjoy life. while she cant do so... she's not the first i've heard of. so ya... i'm just saying out my views in here. haha. and, i'm a buddhist.
whao... its cold tonight. tml gonna watch kung fu panda dvd with boyf! WOO YEAH~! before projects i mean. :D meet mayying at 3pm. i promise her i wont be late! I WONT BE! ^^ i'll leave boyf's place at 2pm. guess i'll be early. well.. better than late. haha! its 1AM now.
today's a pleasant day; if not for the stupidness i had for test!!! DAMN IT LA!
I MIXED UP LEDGERS AND JOURNALS! AND DID NOT REALIZE I HAVE TO WRITE ANSWERS OUT IN THE PAPERS PROVIDED!! I CAN DIE!!!!!!!!
zzz... if not for that... i could have scored near to full marks!? damn it. its easy okay... i really do think it is easy. i only have 1 doubtful mcq and 1 careless unrecorded bank entry! if not for the unfill out things, it'll be 23/25! ****! ARGH!!!!!!
i wanna kill myself!!!!!
DIE XUTING! DIE!!!
NO POINT BEING ALIVE;
-WHEN YOU'RE SO STUPID!
i wanna die. :'( sobs sobs*
NVM! if this is how i feel for test, exams i work extra hard, and be extra careful! I MUST GET HD MAN! cheryl mayying, we must score high for MYOB k? i know u two have same goals as me too! hahaha! jiayous jiayousJIAYOUS! i wanna apply for internship! i'm afraid i might miss out the application date or some information. i must apply for it! i must score well in RMIT! i must achieve my dreams! i must ..... i don know wad else. hahahahaha!
meeting him everyday... yet i still don feel contented! why am i so greedy? :(
project tomorrow at cheryl's place~ meeting baby again in the morning. gonna be a tired day for me! now its 2AM+... hais... tml waking at 8AM! sians...
but, no choice also la... cos i wanna meet him.
i'm a drug-addictor!
you're my sweetest addiction! the only drug i'll wish to take for life. i love you baby <3
MA presentation is the last! woots! and lessons are gonna be over real real REAL soon! :D i can feel the excitement~ but... exams are coming up... -.- zzz... NVM! hols are coming up too!!! hohoho! i'm gonna work work WORK! earn $$! then can always go out with baby! wahahahaha~! recently been good with baby. :) i just hope everything stays this way... but somehow i know it myself... it isnt gonna be like this for long. something will be up soon. hais... i pray that i'm just being over-sensitive. . . .
went jogging this noon with baby. i jogged one round only, and nearly died. baby jogged two rounds. haha! then went back, baby had hair cut and we bought KFC home! ate, bathed and went down for bball. haha! but i played abit only. didnt have the mood for bball today. i feel that i'm always spoiling the game. hais... i hope i can move more... JIAYOUS!
reached home abit late. gotten some nags. zzz... thanks baby. for sending me home quite often recently. it feels really good. but i'm also afraid you might be tired of it... :( hais... i'm contradicting...
its kinda hot tonight... gonna on aircon~ nights all! <3
i should keep this place a cheerful one... rather than a-better-place-to-emo!
i should keep things more to myself and being more independent. i should learn many things... one at a time! JIAYOUS x3!
anyway, went for piano this afternoon, and ate breakfast-lunch at his place. his mum cooked curry! whao... quite nice. i saw his mum cooking last night. so nice of his mum to cook the night before. i missed homecooked! its been long since my mum cooked at home. hais... mum's cook is really nice. she had to work... :( and really tired after that. yet, i still so rebellious... sometimes, i really hate myself. for being so un-filial... :'( hais... after that went to play bball. cos really nothing to do. shoot shoot... i shoot 100 balls think only 1 went in?! DAMN! HATE IT! i must improve! >:( JIAYOUS x3!
now working on project... MYOB MYOB~ after this week, we'll have one presentation to go... and EXAMS are NEARING! again, jiayou jiayouJIAYOU my two cute friends! :D after these we can enjoy enjoyENJOY! ^^
due to compplaints... my font has changed to bigger ones. actually i prefer the small one. haha! things are fine after that night. i bought breezer home to drink. cause my limits really sucks. i cant drink something more alcoholic. and i really had the urge of drinking... i did not want to spend my night thinking again. after i drank, had headaches... but whole mind was him. the face of him when we quarreled. tho not thinking bout the contents; i cried to sleep. was really hurt......
now that everything's kinda over. i rather not mention bout the whole issue. (: i'm fine my friends. thanks to Cheryl for listening me out that night. tho you had your problems too. thanks to friends who'll be there for me. i appreciate it. (: i just hope... things will work out this time. *prays...
well, tml gonna play water with dear. going jurong east swimming complex. hees~ gonna have FUN! ^^ OH! you know what?! just now there's a huge beetle bout 3cm big! in my room!! flying around! ARGH! I HATE BUGS! luckily brother helped me to get rid of it; when it rested. hees.. GOOD RIDDANCE!
turning in now... chocolate dreams!
looking on the bright side... at least these things happens now, and not much later, where there's no turning back. i still love you as much baby-
jus had some memory recapping... i cant help it but to start crying... you've changed... through out the past 6mths... i finally understand the difference between honeymoon period and non-honeymoon period. i know i've changed too. i've changed to loving you more than i've ever did. i hope things wont go worse... i love you baby. i really do.
sometimes i wonder why do people blame around... blaming life is so unfair. getting jealous because another person's life is better. hating people when you're not as good, or as good looking. things i believe in, very few people believes too. i believe in karma. things we get this life is related to our past lives. many questions of doubts will arise whenever i say this... true, we all doubt we had past lives cos we cant see. we wont know. so its up to oneself to believe. to me, it just seems logical. i do believe we had past lives. if we don, why is it that different people have different lives? why do people nowadays gets more lousy? why do people become more evil? as every generation passes, the younger ones are always not as good as the elders. probably some doesnt. some made it out better than their older generation. i feel that its all related. what you have in life is what you reaped in ur past. why would god be unfair to a newly born child? giving an innocent child unfavoured things, while giving another child favoured items? most of the people will say, who knows? you cant see, you wont know. or some will tell me, you think you who? know of all these things... which is why i don like to mention of such topics. i'll just get shoot while trying to let a person know my beliefs. wads the point? hahaha.
i just feel that, people will start blame god and life when they arent good, and don wanna blame themselves for their own fault. well... everyone has their own beliefs. i respect all. so do respect mine too. and don tell me things like " who you think you are " cos its pissing... i'm just sharing. not insisting anyone to believe in my beliefs. i'm happy with my own beliefs. and willing to listen out in others' beliefs. cos i might believe too. everyone learns along the way.
and one funny thing i've notice bout humans. i mean everybody, INCLUDING MYSELF! we tend to always say, " why didnt you warn me earlier bout this? " and if the person had alrdy tried warning, he/she will reply... " like as if i warn you, you'll listen... " leading to many regrets... of " i should have... blah blah blah. i should have... blah blah. "
isn't it funny? doesn't it feels like what i've just said above? bout my beliefs and people doubts... what if, my beliefs are true? well, we'll know when we die. haha! i just feel that, its no harm being a good person. so what if you donate more money or doing extra works... just, maybe by doing so, you've earn credits to your next life, or probably to ur own future! and being a good person, nobody will hate you; not to mention jealous ones... those cant be helped. nobody's perfect.
oh, if anyone happens to pass by my blog and reading this? negative tags will be deleted. because this is MY blog, writing MY own thinkings. i don see the point for entertaining any negative replies, if you don like what i've said, ALT F4, thankyou.
i think you all will be curious of why i'm suddenly talking bout this topic... haha! reason being... i just happen to pass by a fren's blog. and she's complaining bout life being unfair, where by others can go overseas for hols, studying in uni and enjoy life. while she cant do so... she's not the first i've heard of. so ya... i'm just saying out my views in here. haha. and, i'm a buddhist.
whao... its cold tonight. tml gonna watch kung fu panda dvd with boyf! WOO YEAH~! before projects i mean. :D meet mayying at 3pm. i promise her i wont be late! I WONT BE! ^^ i'll leave boyf's place at 2pm. guess i'll be early. well.. better than late. haha! its 1AM now.
today's a pleasant day; if not for the stupidness i had for test!!! DAMN IT LA!
I MIXED UP LEDGERS AND JOURNALS! AND DID NOT REALIZE I HAVE TO WRITE ANSWERS OUT IN THE PAPERS PROVIDED!! I CAN DIE!!!!!!!!
zzz... if not for that... i could have scored near to full marks!? damn it. its easy okay... i really do think it is easy. i only have 1 doubtful mcq and 1 careless unrecorded bank entry! if not for the unfill out things, it'll be 23/25! ****! ARGH!!!!!!
i wanna kill myself!!!!!
DIE XUTING! DIE!!!
NO POINT BEING ALIVE;
-WHEN YOU'RE SO STUPID!
i wanna die. :'( sobs sobs*
NVM! if this is how i feel for test, exams i work extra hard, and be extra careful! I MUST GET HD MAN! cheryl mayying, we must score high for MYOB k? i know u two have same goals as me too! hahaha! jiayous jiayousJIAYOUS! i wanna apply for internship! i'm afraid i might miss out the application date or some information. i must apply for it! i must score well in RMIT! i must achieve my dreams! i must ..... i don know wad else. hahahahaha!
