ohhh.. no pics today. nothing nice taken. have some pics taken in baby's phone; took him while he's bball-ing. haha! i'm a spy. i take pics unknowingly. *grins hehehe.
today whole day study lor... at hke. a cc near his place. started studying from 2 all the way till 7pm... -.- but i din pay attention most of the time la. baby seduce me with his bball at court. LOLOLOLOLOL! i kept looking at him playing... damn. and i din get to play at all. zzz... after my test man! i'll bring my cheryl and mayying to play bball!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! :D i miss bball!~
anyway, its late again... i'm still studying... doing some practice qns. zzz... i kept doing wrong chpts or wrong qns. stupid leh.... how dumb can i get... -.- i jus ate some noodles my mum brought home today. cos as usual... i'm hungry in the wee hours. hahahahaha.. either i've got gd digestive system, or there's a worm!! okok. tats all for today. nothing special. only enjoyed seeing him so long today. :D i'm back to practice. ALL THE BEST FOR TEST TML; my two cute friends-! ^^
this was taken 2days ago... Sayonara!
my best weekends ever; having them spent with you. i hope everyday is like this, love lots darling!
i'm in for a post! haha. went out with dearest today. watch death race. as recommended by cheryl, whao... its really nice! i like such kinda shows... dearest mention he wanna watch 4bia. but i wasnt supportive. cos its scary, but i read reviews, think its mostly gross... so was rather ok lor. but too bad la, the timing didnt suit us. haha! oh, another good news! dearest finished attachment! HIP HIP HURRAY!!! times 3 haha. this means i can see him more often next week! yeah baby!~
didnt felt gd today... when i got home at around 7pm, had gastric & i napped from 8 - 10. and woke up having a little bit of sore throat... and v hungry as usual. hahaha! now its late. i'm gonna study abit before entering dreamland. these pictures are taken at his place. :D his room, livingroom and kitchen.
cheryl, don be sad... life is full of ups and downs. you still got mayying and me! :D love is dictate by oneself. to me, love is bitterbittersweet. there's gotta be bitters then you'll cherish the sweet. so double bitter and one sweet. :) give and take is important for both. i don always just think from my own point of view... i'll always try to understand from his shoes. things that i do, how would he feel when he finds out. if he doesnt do the same to me, or cheats me in some way... again, all i can say is... its still him that i love. i'll still forgive him. but i'll hope he changes before my love dies. when a person gets hurt too much from love, love will die. unless, i'm someone with no character, no senses of anger and sadness. then only, probably love wont die...
cheryl, JIAYOUS! we're always here for you! :) put these aside first... schools ur priority now! (say this to me, when i'm in the same situation as u!) hahaha! NIGHTS
OMG! its 3:3o AM now?! and guess what? i'm feeling sooooooooooooooooooooooooo HUNGRY! i guess there's a tape worm in me! Ahhhhh!!!~~~
hahaha. v bored la. everyday also project. i wanna play also cannot. sobsobs.. :'( hais... hope these two months can pass faster! ANYWAY! i'm looking forward to SATURDAY!!!! :D i finally can see my dardar~ hohoho! I MISS HIM! yea! yea! yea!!!! also, i might be getting a lappy! VAIO, TZ series! hahahahaha! aww~~~~~ i really like te TZ series...! tml meeting claudia and fiona in KR. hees. been looking forward to! its long since i last saw claudia... and i missed KR! going back for some memory refresh. :D how nice... after that going to do project in town. hopefully can eat the super nian gao. hehehe. i know its fried! i jus wanna say its super can?! haha.
OH YA! think bout two or three days back? there's this stupid idiot guy in class tell us: can you girls please keep ur volume down? ****! ITS MY FIRST TIME HAVING SOMEONE TO ASK ME KEEP QUIET IN CLASS! that asshole! we were whispering ok! i guess god was also on our side, cos after tat guy tell us to keep quiet, the whole class was rattling!! haha! LOSER!!!!!! you S**K! i hate you! for telling me to keep quiet in class, when i was whispering! eeeediot! :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P
ohhhhh... i still feel so hungry. :( i have to bear till tml!!! JIAYOUS! hoho~
i need your attention i need your love i need your care i need your understandings i need your support i need your appreciation i need to feel my importance to you i need to feel secured i just need you.
my world is tearing apart... i don know what i'm doing i don know what i'm thinking. i may seem to be happy always. but who knows what on earth am i crying out inside? i'm so lost. confused. devastated.
its still him that you chose. its still him that you love. face it. & all i can do is hope that... i'm just being too sensitive. i love you baby.
24th August was Cheryl's birthday. i'm one day late in blogging this. but i've alrdy wished her happy bday. so... HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY here! glad that you've enjoyed your bday celebrations. sorry i didnt have a chance to celebrate it with you. next year yeah? :D
hope you liked my present to you too. really had not much ideas of what to get you. KOSE's products are good. the foundation powder is fine. loose powder are good too. but the SPF is lesser. and it isnt 2way. i'm not very sure whats the 2way thing about too. but i guess the foundation have more vitamins. as in it protects ur face; doesnt clog pores. loose powder isnt that nice on packaging too, and its bulky. it may be a chore to bring it out. and will be quite a waste too, cos when you apply, alot of the powder will be puffed out from your face. it wears off easily too. also, apply foundation looks better.
these are why i bought foundation instead of loose powder that you've mention. haha! well well, hope you liked it! happy 20th + 1day! (: may your dreams come true; may your life be filled with beloved Mayying and myself, life will always be good with us around. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!
i guess my reply will be too long to be tagged. this post is specially for mayying. (: i don know if u really copied and pasted it or not la.. haha! but i guess it speaks ur mind, since u've posted it.
well, do things that you wont regret. the most important things are meant to be said. it may be tough, but afterall its still important. overcome it! it'll be over. do not be after of losing what u already had with someone. waiting and rejecting a love, when you do love a person, hurts even more. what if, one day this person is gone? will you regret waiting? cherish time, cherish love.
loving a person more may be tough. but seeing your love being blessed with your loves, is a bliss too. are you happy when you see his smiles? fear of rejection is a feeling controlled by you and no one else. if one day, you have to face the rejection... tell yourself, at least you've had the happiest moments. rejection hurts. but time heals it. if fearing of rejection, is the reason to being back together again; all i can say is, its not worth it. if you never try, you'll never know... what if, rejection wont appear?
* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye? i'll bear with the pain, because love was decided by my heart, not my brain. its still him that i love. i may feel stupid. but i would rather i had tried, than giving up.
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there ? there's nothing i could do. its still him that i choose. i might find ways to let him be there, be it thrashing my pride. whats more important; love or pride?
*What would you do if someone you loved died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore) i cant not care, because he's still someone i love; unless i don love, i wont bother. like i've said... don do things that you'll regret.
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? i'll hope... he's happy with his life. if i couldnt have him due to my own bads, i'd rather die.
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I LOVE YOU? it'll be a mistake learn, and never repeat. after all, time wont rewind. life continues no matter what.
hey, i don know if the person you're referring is the person i'm thinking of. if it is... just to let you know things i'll do. i may say harsh things like, whats over is over. BUT, if love still exist; there's always another chance. i do have the mindset that, i'll never go back with any of my ex-s. true. like now, all my ex-s, i wont go back with. but it'll be different, if weifeng is ever gonna break up with me. because i feel that i'll never be able to stop loving him, even if he hurts me. this feeling gets strong everyday. love is not about knowing who loves who more. to me... love is about cherish and treasure; and seeing him happy. because i love him, what else can i possibly see? because i love him, i wont want to lose him. because love is not a feeling controllable by me. i love him with my heart.
not just love for your lover, its also love for your friends. when your friends know that you care and cherish them, they'll be happy. just like when your lover knows you care and cherish them, they'll be happy too. a lover's smiles are always the sweetest.
you may need some time of your own. take a break; clear mind. think about it again, when everything feels better. (: we friends will always be here for you. i don know if my post makes any sense to you. if it doesnt, its alright. at least this post is still writing bout my thoughts. so... do you know me better now? haha! take care my friends!
i love you baby. this is a fact; that'll nv be change. because its my heart tell you so.
my life is in a total mess. it sucks thinking bout all those problems i've got. i really wonder when will i ever grow up, and be independent. i get easily distracted and blur all the time that... i forget things so easily. people who knows me knows that i'm very forgetful. but it contradicts... i've a good memory still. i guess i've stm. haha. i wonder... how many ppl are gonna step in and out of my life.
all i was trying to do was just wanting to let you know how i've felt. why couldnt you just understand? i felt tat you've stepped back after kbox that night. if you don think so, then jus let me know. is tat so difficult? i wasnt picking up a topic to quarrel with you. i just want you to understand me. thats all. i want you to know why i've changed to become so possessive... why did i? its all because i love you. because you once told me, getting jealous and being selfish bout you shows my care and love. but it seems that you think i'm abit over now... ok, its fine with me. all i've to do is to change back to who i used to be. probably you'll like it more. so is all these changes up to me?
no it isnt. its all for you. its all because of you. you've make such a big impact in me. not just things you do, also things you say. i'm getting really upset recently... i jus cant understand everything. frens will leave me... i know, i understand why they will too. i cant blame them. cos its all solely, my bad. i felt so lost. each time i've quarreled with you. i don have much frens to turn to, you shld know. my whole entire world jus consist of you and jus you alone. i'm different. i need ppl, i need someone to care for me when i'm down. i need ppl to talk to when i'm stress, upset or even when i'm happy. i just hope i wasnt so dependable on others... i just hope i was more independent. & i just hope... you can understand me more. i hope everything could be better.
i do wish to understand you more. if you would tell me what you're thinking.
another enjoyable day with my two cute frens. haha. cheryl and mayying. went k-boxing today! cheryl had a bad throat, but she still sings well. i mean... other than those high pitches gone haywire, her voice is sweet. as expected... they could sing well. i felt like i was some noise pollution. haha.
ok, lets start from the start of the day. i actually woke up at 10:30am. but after i've replied my boyboy, i fell back asleep. zzz. end up, i woke up at 11.20am. haha! rushed and prepared. i left house at 12.35pm? i think... then lucky enough, my bus got there when i reached the stop. but aint lucky enough cos i've to wait for 5mins for the train. so... i was late for the meet-up for bout 15mins. cheryl were late too. haha! may ying was still the earliest! hehe. sry, everytime have to keep you waiting. due to our lateness, we cant eat "QIJI"s nasi lemak, cos have to queue and wait for seats. we then went to suntec's food court and all ate prawn mee.
then 2pm - 7pm... K session.
after k-box, we had "QIJI" for dinner. then went window shopping around. and left cityhall at 9plus pm. cheryl and mayying had a free ride home. haha! how i wish the chaffeur stays in the west. LOL! after i've board the train, i called brother to fetch me from clementi. and he leeched me for a drink! that sucker. but, its just a pink dolphin. haha! so.... nothing big. i jus wanna scold him. hees. went to walk vivi for awhile and headed home.
now, i've done abit of proj, blog and goin to slp. i don know whats more to put in for proj. tml then discuss with team mates. :) end of enjoyment, start of brain squeezing tml! zzz... nights!
cheryl, i'm blogging k. haha! these few days nothing much to mention la. its all about project project and still.... PROJECT! no more brain juices left. haha. all sucked dry by projects!!! well, tests coming up. there'll be a chalet on 5th sept. not sure if i'm going... but on the 6th sept, its our law test! so if i'm going chalet, it'll be on sat night. =/ i hope 'someone' will be there late. at least when i'm around... i'll feel better no matter wad. no choice... i'm a girl after all. and i'm a v sensitive person. :P altho i'm all sucked by projects, but still am having fun with my two cute frens. :D
have been doing projects at np lately. feel like an intruder. but... no one knows. haha! np's student lounge is much nicer and comfortable than sim's. hopefully, we did well for FA task1! GO GIRLS! we must get top in class! hahahahahahahaha!!! we aim high drop high. :D tml, we girls are gonna enjoy ourselves at k-box! a day to relax for us. finally getting some life yeah? haha! well, i'm looking forward~ its been long since i last went, as i've mentioned before. and on the 7th, we'll be going wild wild wet! hopefully, we'll succeed in planning this time. haha! cos i like wild wild wet. i went there with my boyboy and some friends on the first time. a very enjoyable event! ^^
oh yea, i went safari on 16th aug with min yi. not bad. rather nice. still an experience after all... my fav was the tram ride. cos i don have to walk. as you people know me, i'm lazy. super lazy. haha! we went into the very scary place "the bats". they jus fly around. aint afraid of humans. looking into our eyes, like 'diao'-ing us. whao! i asked min yi: will they become vampy? haha! as usual i always ask stupid questions. its jus for fun la. oh, there was an uncle! he was so excited! he's right behind us... when a bat flew passed him, he said: OMG! i just saw a bat! -.- interesting hor. haha! then i told min yi, there's another one bigger beside him and he din see. then not long, he spotted it and made a hoo-haa out of it. haha! v funny uncle. i think he's a singaporean. sounds like it...
today, as usual had project at np. then lesson. guess wad?! i fell asleep in class! haha. sounds like i'm so proud of it. i should be ashamed... hehe. too bad, i was really tired. din sleep well for the past few days. the last whole week was fully packed! morning meet bf, afternoon project, night lessons. a day without lesson and project, was a day with bf. but one of the days was in stall helping mum. met up with bf so much last week, cos he's super ill. :( so went to take care of him from monday - friday. a 24/7 gf? haha. not yet. i still think i'm aint good enough. probably i've high standards. but... i doubt. haha. well, i just want my every best for him. :)
ok, i'm super duper hungry and tired now. going to my dreamland. nights!
i really hope everything'll be the same as the past. saying you love me more than i do; means alot to me... cause i really do love you baby. be with me; nv leave me; no matter what happens... promise me, will you? for you, i will. ♥♥
Love is an energy source when you're tired. Love is what brightens your day when things go wrong. Love is the warmth you receive when you're lonely. Love is a support you'll need when you fall. Love is the only will for changing yourself to please a person. Love is all you need/want when you're upset. Love is beautiful.
yet . . .
Love is ugly. Love may not always be with you. Love may not understand you. Love is contradicting. Love hurts.
Love is blind. I'm blinded by you.
I love you because... you're special you're my dream you're smart you're cute you're handsome you're kind you're responsible you're sensitive you're sporty you're fit you're tall you're tanned you're all tat i've wanted
Love was a seed planted in me, when i know you. Love grew in me, as the days passed. Love is you.
Today, woke up at 830! gonna visit myboyboy cos he's still very badly sicked! poor thing... :'( but luckily i'm strong still! must not be contracted with his virus. if not i cant take care of him alrdy, soo.. must at least wait till he alright le... then i can fall sick. haha! but of cos, best is not to fall sick! soooo... recently if u see me eating more fruits and vegs, this is the reason. :)
anyway... projects' are driving us nuts! currently working on MA task1 only, and our souls nearly got sucked away. wads more? . . . first week of next month is the submission! plus LAW & FA test! omgomgomgomgomgomg~~~~ & don think tats the end! there's still 2 more project submission after those! the LIST:-
11th August - FA task1 (done!)
4th September - MA task1
6th September - Law test
i forgot FA test date!! haha
15th September - FA task2
30th September - MA task2
sobsob. altho i feel tat its more stressful than acca, but i prefer the lifestyle schooling in sim. acca may be recognise and more carefree in academics. but it's a killer in exams! because of 1 main reason! D-I-S-C-I-P-L-I-N-E! schooling in acca have to be very constant in revising. its pretty hard to form a study grp too. everyone have their own business to handle with. but the full-time classes are more friendly. AND ALSO! the teachers are more slack in the full-time classes. haha! cos full-time classes are younger students who arent really paying much attention too. where as night classes with working adults, are all alot more serious; so are the teachers.
friday's gonna be tired for me. cos i've to wake at 5am. :'( but after tat, gonna meet my two cute friends; for Cherry's constant nags of Kbox. haha! woots~ real long since i last been to Kbox. bout more than half yr i think. haha! ok. i'm gonna stop here. i'm lazy to talk more. altho i still have lotsa things to say. next time!
baby. pls recover faster. its a pain seeing you like this. :'( love ya lots!
Woots! new blog done. took quite long to do this. cos of my stupidity... i went to click on the close button! -.- how dumb. myboy is right. there's no cure for stupidity. haha! went to look at cheryl's blog just. why? . . . cos of a dumb lilmisswendy tat blogs out cheryl's url for ripping her skins. dumb. like as if her skins are nice. *pui lol... kk, i don wanna talk bout tat nutted-brain.
i'm so hungry now!!! but its late! gonna make milo to cheat my tummy. haha!
well... this morning was woken up by chee's msg. asking if everyone wanna go east coast. haha. i din reply. then found out myboy's on mc! so i got up and prepare to fly over. got there, accompany him to see a doc and he accompany me for lunch. :) then cabbed to np! cos i was late! haha. but wasnt really tat late when i got there. cos of the closure of canteen 4 drinks stall, my two cute friends cheryl & mayying have to walk all the way back to canteen 1! poorthing... i look at the sun. i feel sad for them.
after lunch, we did project and had class. then home sweet home!
ohhh.. no pics today. nothing nice taken. have some pics taken in baby's phone; took him while he's bball-ing. haha! i'm a spy. i take pics unknowingly. *grins hehehe.
today whole day study lor... at hke. a cc near his place. started studying from 2 all the way till 7pm... -.- but i din pay attention most of the time la. baby seduce me with his bball at court. LOLOLOLOLOL! i kept looking at him playing... damn. and i din get to play at all. zzz... after my test man! i'll bring my cheryl and mayying to play bball!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! :D i miss bball!~
anyway, its late again... i'm still studying... doing some practice qns. zzz... i kept doing wrong chpts or wrong qns. stupid leh.... how dumb can i get... -.- i jus ate some noodles my mum brought home today. cos as usual... i'm hungry in the wee hours. hahahahaha.. either i've got gd digestive system, or there's a worm!! okok. tats all for today. nothing special. only enjoyed seeing him so long today. :D i'm back to practice. ALL THE BEST FOR TEST TML; my two cute friends-! ^^
this was taken 2days ago... Sayonara!
my best weekends ever; having them spent with you. i hope everyday is like this, love lots darling!
i'm in for a post! haha. went out with dearest today. watch death race. as recommended by cheryl, whao... its really nice! i like such kinda shows... dearest mention he wanna watch 4bia. but i wasnt supportive. cos its scary, but i read reviews, think its mostly gross... so was rather ok lor. but too bad la, the timing didnt suit us. haha! oh, another good news! dearest finished attachment! HIP HIP HURRAY!!! times 3 haha. this means i can see him more often next week! yeah baby!~
didnt felt gd today... when i got home at around 7pm, had gastric & i napped from 8 - 10. and woke up having a little bit of sore throat... and v hungry as usual. hahaha! now its late. i'm gonna study abit before entering dreamland. these pictures are taken at his place. :D his room, livingroom and kitchen.
cheryl, don be sad... life is full of ups and downs. you still got mayying and me! :D love is dictate by oneself. to me, love is bitterbittersweet. there's gotta be bitters then you'll cherish the sweet. so double bitter and one sweet. :) give and take is important for both. i don always just think from my own point of view... i'll always try to understand from his shoes. things that i do, how would he feel when he finds out. if he doesnt do the same to me, or cheats me in some way... again, all i can say is... its still him that i love. i'll still forgive him. but i'll hope he changes before my love dies. when a person gets hurt too much from love, love will die. unless, i'm someone with no character, no senses of anger and sadness. then only, probably love wont die...
cheryl, JIAYOUS! we're always here for you! :) put these aside first... schools ur priority now! (say this to me, when i'm in the same situation as u!) hahaha! NIGHTS
OMG! its 3:3o AM now?! and guess what? i'm feeling sooooooooooooooooooooooooo HUNGRY! i guess there's a tape worm in me! Ahhhhh!!!~~~
hahaha. v bored la. everyday also project. i wanna play also cannot. sobsobs.. :'( hais... hope these two months can pass faster! ANYWAY! i'm looking forward to SATURDAY!!!! :D i finally can see my dardar~ hohoho! I MISS HIM! yea! yea! yea!!!! also, i might be getting a lappy! VAIO, TZ series! hahahahaha! aww~~~~~ i really like te TZ series...! tml meeting claudia and fiona in KR. hees. been looking forward to! its long since i last saw claudia... and i missed KR! going back for some memory refresh. :D how nice... after that going to do project in town. hopefully can eat the super nian gao. hehehe. i know its fried! i jus wanna say its super can?! haha.
OH YA! think bout two or three days back? there's this stupid idiot guy in class tell us: can you girls please keep ur volume down? ****! ITS MY FIRST TIME HAVING SOMEONE TO ASK ME KEEP QUIET IN CLASS! that asshole! we were whispering ok! i guess god was also on our side, cos after tat guy tell us to keep quiet, the whole class was rattling!! haha! LOSER!!!!!! you S**K! i hate you! for telling me to keep quiet in class, when i was whispering! eeeediot! :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P
ohhhhh... i still feel so hungry. :( i have to bear till tml!!! JIAYOUS! hoho~
i need your attention i need your love i need your care i need your understandings i need your support i need your appreciation i need to feel my importance to you i need to feel secured i just need you.
my world is tearing apart... i don know what i'm doing i don know what i'm thinking. i may seem to be happy always. but who knows what on earth am i crying out inside? i'm so lost. confused. devastated.
its still him that you chose. its still him that you love. face it. & all i can do is hope that... i'm just being too sensitive. i love you baby.
24th August was Cheryl's birthday. i'm one day late in blogging this. but i've alrdy wished her happy bday. so... HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY here! glad that you've enjoyed your bday celebrations. sorry i didnt have a chance to celebrate it with you. next year yeah? :D
hope you liked my present to you too. really had not much ideas of what to get you. KOSE's products are good. the foundation powder is fine. loose powder are good too. but the SPF is lesser. and it isnt 2way. i'm not very sure whats the 2way thing about too. but i guess the foundation have more vitamins. as in it protects ur face; doesnt clog pores. loose powder isnt that nice on packaging too, and its bulky. it may be a chore to bring it out. and will be quite a waste too, cos when you apply, alot of the powder will be puffed out from your face. it wears off easily too. also, apply foundation looks better.
these are why i bought foundation instead of loose powder that you've mention. haha! well well, hope you liked it! happy 20th + 1day! (: may your dreams come true; may your life be filled with beloved Mayying and myself, life will always be good with us around. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!
i guess my reply will be too long to be tagged. this post is specially for mayying. (: i don know if u really copied and pasted it or not la.. haha! but i guess it speaks ur mind, since u've posted it.
well, do things that you wont regret. the most important things are meant to be said. it may be tough, but afterall its still important. overcome it! it'll be over. do not be after of losing what u already had with someone. waiting and rejecting a love, when you do love a person, hurts even more. what if, one day this person is gone? will you regret waiting? cherish time, cherish love.
loving a person more may be tough. but seeing your love being blessed with your loves, is a bliss too. are you happy when you see his smiles? fear of rejection is a feeling controlled by you and no one else. if one day, you have to face the rejection... tell yourself, at least you've had the happiest moments. rejection hurts. but time heals it. if fearing of rejection, is the reason to being back together again; all i can say is, its not worth it. if you never try, you'll never know... what if, rejection wont appear?
* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye? i'll bear with the pain, because love was decided by my heart, not my brain. its still him that i love. i may feel stupid. but i would rather i had tried, than giving up.
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there ? there's nothing i could do. its still him that i choose. i might find ways to let him be there, be it thrashing my pride. whats more important; love or pride?
*What would you do if someone you loved died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore) i cant not care, because he's still someone i love; unless i don love, i wont bother. like i've said... don do things that you'll regret.
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? i'll hope... he's happy with his life. if i couldnt have him due to my own bads, i'd rather die.
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I LOVE YOU? it'll be a mistake learn, and never repeat. after all, time wont rewind. life continues no matter what.
hey, i don know if the person you're referring is the person i'm thinking of. if it is... just to let you know things i'll do. i may say harsh things like, whats over is over. BUT, if love still exist; there's always another chance. i do have the mindset that, i'll never go back with any of my ex-s. true. like now, all my ex-s, i wont go back with. but it'll be different, if weifeng is ever gonna break up with me. because i feel that i'll never be able to stop loving him, even if he hurts me. this feeling gets strong everyday. love is not about knowing who loves who more. to me... love is about cherish and treasure; and seeing him happy. because i love him, what else can i possibly see? because i love him, i wont want to lose him. because love is not a feeling controllable by me. i love him with my heart.
not just love for your lover, its also love for your friends. when your friends know that you care and cherish them, they'll be happy. just like when your lover knows you care and cherish them, they'll be happy too. a lover's smiles are always the sweetest.
you may need some time of your own. take a break; clear mind. think about it again, when everything feels better. (: we friends will always be here for you. i don know if my post makes any sense to you. if it doesnt, its alright. at least this post is still writing bout my thoughts. so... do you know me better now? haha! take care my friends!
i love you baby. this is a fact; that'll nv be change. because its my heart tell you so.
my life is in a total mess. it sucks thinking bout all those problems i've got. i really wonder when will i ever grow up, and be independent. i get easily distracted and blur all the time that... i forget things so easily. people who knows me knows that i'm very forgetful. but it contradicts... i've a good memory still. i guess i've stm. haha. i wonder... how many ppl are gonna step in and out of my life.
all i was trying to do was just wanting to let you know how i've felt. why couldnt you just understand? i felt tat you've stepped back after kbox that night. if you don think so, then jus let me know. is tat so difficult? i wasnt picking up a topic to quarrel with you. i just want you to understand me. thats all. i want you to know why i've changed to become so possessive... why did i? its all because i love you. because you once told me, getting jealous and being selfish bout you shows my care and love. but it seems that you think i'm abit over now... ok, its fine with me. all i've to do is to change back to who i used to be. probably you'll like it more. so is all these changes up to me?
no it isnt. its all for you. its all because of you. you've make such a big impact in me. not just things you do, also things you say. i'm getting really upset recently... i jus cant understand everything. frens will leave me... i know, i understand why they will too. i cant blame them. cos its all solely, my bad. i felt so lost. each time i've quarreled with you. i don have much frens to turn to, you shld know. my whole entire world jus consist of you and jus you alone. i'm different. i need ppl, i need someone to care for me when i'm down. i need ppl to talk to when i'm stress, upset or even when i'm happy. i just hope i wasnt so dependable on others... i just hope i was more independent. & i just hope... you can understand me more. i hope everything could be better.
i do wish to understand you more. if you would tell me what you're thinking.
another enjoyable day with my two cute frens. haha. cheryl and mayying. went k-boxing today! cheryl had a bad throat, but she still sings well. i mean... other than those high pitches gone haywire, her voice is sweet. as expected... they could sing well. i felt like i was some noise pollution. haha.
ok, lets start from the start of the day. i actually woke up at 10:30am. but after i've replied my boyboy, i fell back asleep. zzz. end up, i woke up at 11.20am. haha! rushed and prepared. i left house at 12.35pm? i think... then lucky enough, my bus got there when i reached the stop. but aint lucky enough cos i've to wait for 5mins for the train. so... i was late for the meet-up for bout 15mins. cheryl were late too. haha! may ying was still the earliest! hehe. sry, everytime have to keep you waiting. due to our lateness, we cant eat "QIJI"s nasi lemak, cos have to queue and wait for seats. we then went to suntec's food court and all ate prawn mee.
then 2pm - 7pm... K session.
after k-box, we had "QIJI" for dinner. then went window shopping around. and left cityhall at 9plus pm. cheryl and mayying had a free ride home. haha! how i wish the chaffeur stays in the west. LOL! after i've board the train, i called brother to fetch me from clementi. and he leeched me for a drink! that sucker. but, its just a pink dolphin. haha! so.... nothing big. i jus wanna scold him. hees. went to walk vivi for awhile and headed home.
now, i've done abit of proj, blog and goin to slp. i don know whats more to put in for proj. tml then discuss with team mates. :) end of enjoyment, start of brain squeezing tml! zzz... nights!
cheryl, i'm blogging k. haha! these few days nothing much to mention la. its all about project project and still.... PROJECT! no more brain juices left. haha. all sucked dry by projects!!! well, tests coming up. there'll be a chalet on 5th sept. not sure if i'm going... but on the 6th sept, its our law test! so if i'm going chalet, it'll be on sat night. =/ i hope 'someone' will be there late. at least when i'm around... i'll feel better no matter wad. no choice... i'm a girl after all. and i'm a v sensitive person. :P altho i'm all sucked by projects, but still am having fun with my two cute frens. :D
have been doing projects at np lately. feel like an intruder. but... no one knows. haha! np's student lounge is much nicer and comfortable than sim's. hopefully, we did well for FA task1! GO GIRLS! we must get top in class! hahahahahahahaha!!! we aim high drop high. :D tml, we girls are gonna enjoy ourselves at k-box! a day to relax for us. finally getting some life yeah? haha! well, i'm looking forward~ its been long since i last went, as i've mentioned before. and on the 7th, we'll be going wild wild wet! hopefully, we'll succeed in planning this time. haha! cos i like wild wild wet. i went there with my boyboy and some friends on the first time. a very enjoyable event! ^^
oh yea, i went safari on 16th aug with min yi. not bad. rather nice. still an experience after all... my fav was the tram ride. cos i don have to walk. as you people know me, i'm lazy. super lazy. haha! we went into the very scary place "the bats". they jus fly around. aint afraid of humans. looking into our eyes, like 'diao'-ing us. whao! i asked min yi: will they become vampy? haha! as usual i always ask stupid questions. its jus for fun la. oh, there was an uncle! he was so excited! he's right behind us... when a bat flew passed him, he said: OMG! i just saw a bat! -.- interesting hor. haha! then i told min yi, there's another one bigger beside him and he din see. then not long, he spotted it and made a hoo-haa out of it. haha! v funny uncle. i think he's a singaporean. sounds like it...
today, as usual had project at np. then lesson. guess wad?! i fell asleep in class! haha. sounds like i'm so proud of it. i should be ashamed... hehe. too bad, i was really tired. din sleep well for the past few days. the last whole week was fully packed! morning meet bf, afternoon project, night lessons. a day without lesson and project, was a day with bf. but one of the days was in stall helping mum. met up with bf so much last week, cos he's super ill. :( so went to take care of him from monday - friday. a 24/7 gf? haha. not yet. i still think i'm aint good enough. probably i've high standards. but... i doubt. haha. well, i just want my every best for him. :)
ok, i'm super duper hungry and tired now. going to my dreamland. nights!
i really hope everything'll be the same as the past. saying you love me more than i do; means alot to me... cause i really do love you baby. be with me; nv leave me; no matter what happens... promise me, will you? for you, i will. ♥♥
Love is an energy source when you're tired. Love is what brightens your day when things go wrong. Love is the warmth you receive when you're lonely. Love is a support you'll need when you fall. Love is the only will for changing yourself to please a person. Love is all you need/want when you're upset. Love is beautiful.
yet . . .
Love is ugly. Love may not always be with you. Love may not understand you. Love is contradicting. Love hurts.
Love is blind. I'm blinded by you.
I love you because... you're special you're my dream you're smart you're cute you're handsome you're kind you're responsible you're sensitive you're sporty you're fit you're tall you're tanned you're all tat i've wanted
Love was a seed planted in me, when i know you. Love grew in me, as the days passed. Love is you.
Today, woke up at 830! gonna visit myboyboy cos he's still very badly sicked! poor thing... :'( but luckily i'm strong still! must not be contracted with his virus. if not i cant take care of him alrdy, soo.. must at least wait till he alright le... then i can fall sick. haha! but of cos, best is not to fall sick! soooo... recently if u see me eating more fruits and vegs, this is the reason. :)
anyway... projects' are driving us nuts! currently working on MA task1 only, and our souls nearly got sucked away. wads more? . . . first week of next month is the submission! plus LAW & FA test! omgomgomgomgomgomg~~~~ & don think tats the end! there's still 2 more project submission after those! the LIST:-
11th August - FA task1 (done!)
4th September - MA task1
6th September - Law test
i forgot FA test date!! haha
15th September - FA task2
30th September - MA task2
sobsob. altho i feel tat its more stressful than acca, but i prefer the lifestyle schooling in sim. acca may be recognise and more carefree in academics. but it's a killer in exams! because of 1 main reason! D-I-S-C-I-P-L-I-N-E! schooling in acca have to be very constant in revising. its pretty hard to form a study grp too. everyone have their own business to handle with. but the full-time classes are more friendly. AND ALSO! the teachers are more slack in the full-time classes. haha! cos full-time classes are younger students who arent really paying much attention too. where as night classes with working adults, are all alot more serious; so are the teachers.
friday's gonna be tired for me. cos i've to wake at 5am. :'( but after tat, gonna meet my two cute friends; for Cherry's constant nags of Kbox. haha! woots~ real long since i last been to Kbox. bout more than half yr i think. haha! ok. i'm gonna stop here. i'm lazy to talk more. altho i still have lotsa things to say. next time!
baby. pls recover faster. its a pain seeing you like this. :'( love ya lots!
Woots! new blog done. took quite long to do this. cos of my stupidity... i went to click on the close button! -.- how dumb. myboy is right. there's no cure for stupidity. haha! went to look at cheryl's blog just. why? . . . cos of a dumb lilmisswendy tat blogs out cheryl's url for ripping her skins. dumb. like as if her skins are nice. *pui lol... kk, i don wanna talk bout tat nutted-brain.
i'm so hungry now!!! but its late! gonna make milo to cheat my tummy. haha!
well... this morning was woken up by chee's msg. asking if everyone wanna go east coast. haha. i din reply. then found out myboy's on mc! so i got up and prepare to fly over. got there, accompany him to see a doc and he accompany me for lunch. :) then cabbed to np! cos i was late! haha. but wasnt really tat late when i got there. cos of the closure of canteen 4 drinks stall, my two cute friends cheryl & mayying have to walk all the way back to canteen 1! poorthing... i look at the sun. i feel sad for them.
after lunch, we did project and had class. then home sweet home!
I'M TRYING OUT PICS~
YEAH! LONG HAIR!
I'M TRYING TO ACT CUTE. HAHAHAHAHAX!!
